The truth
is:
If you
knew you could
handle anything
that came your
way, what would you
have to fear? The answer is: NOTHING!~ Susan Jeffers quotes from Feel The Fear… And Do it Anyway Apparently it turns out there are more things I am afraid of than I’d  like to admit.  I finally started reading Feel the fear and do it anyway by Susan Jeffers.  Before my vacation I had an opportunity to delve deeper into my soul and think about lots of things.  I did lots more soul searching while I was in Egypt and realized that I had lots of fears that were holding me back from doing stuff I wanted to do.

• I am afraid people might not like me.
• I am afraid of being a bad mother.  Unfortunately bad sometimes means too tough and sometimes means too soft.  Contradictory I know.
• I am afraid of making phone calls.  I have no idea why, but I hate having to call people other than my close friends or family members.
• I am afraid of letting go of  things sometimes.  I recently went through my clothes in a purge session and found a pair of trousers that I remember buying 3 years before my dad passed away while on a family trip all of us together,  that is like around 13 years ago maybe more.  Every time I tried giving them away I’d get all sentimental.  After a lot of thinking I realized they were more than just a pair of trousers that don’t fit me anymore.  They were all these happy memories that I was scared of giving away if I let go of the trousers.
• I am afraid of hurting the people I love so I end up in a state of guilt, stress  or unhappiness and sometimes all three together.

It is not that I am crazy or need therapy, not that I’d mind  finding someone I could complain to without feeling bad about making them feel bad .

I just think that I could be a much more balanced and happier individual if I dealt with them.  Realizing that fear was the underlying motivator in so many of my actions was an eye opener.  It feels liberating that now I know why, and that I can deal with each one of these fears.  It seems weird that I had never realized it before.

I am loving the book.