Friday’s FO: Absolutely nothing at all, and it is ok

I have finished nothing. I have been feeling extremely uninspired for the last couple of days. I do not want to do anything, make anything or even mend anything. I am content reading books and looking at pretty pictures. At first I tried to fight it. I knit swatches and drew up charts. I even cast on for something I had designed and after knitting the first 12 rows (176 stitch rows) I ripped it all out and gave up. I realized there was nothing wrong with that. I am having the crafter’s version of writer’s block. Can I call it crafter’s block? It doesn’t feel like a block. It feels more like a lump.
I even don’t feel like taking pictures. That for me is really strange. Long before Instagram, flickr and my “big” camera I would take pictures. It is like my own version of a diary. There are many days when I don’t feel like talking much or writing, but I always love documenting things with the lens. I sometimes joke that if I died today there would be no proof of my existence. No one takes pictures of me. But to be honest, my pictures are proof of my life.
I realized that I was feeling pressures to make the perfect thing. And then I started thinking, why do I even make stuff? Who am I? Who do I want to be? I am having existential arguments with myself.
Yet, I managed to do create new headers for the blog, do you like them?
I need to take a few steps back and look at the big picture and redesign my life too.


2 responses to “Friday’s FO: Absolutely nothing at all, and it is ok”

  1. jaderenee says:

    I love your new header design, and the font also. Sounds like you just need a little break from things. Been there, too and yes, it IS ok. Don’t feel compelled to “make and do” something. Just be for awhile and listen. When you’re ready to continue, or start fresh, you’ll know it. Wishing you Peace and Abundance…

    • jessyz says:

      Thanks, I recently got Pixelmator and am learning how to edit photos and images in a good way. I have decided to take a break and just read and be for a while.